Two nights ago, I had a dream wherein I was new friends with Lea Michele. She had meet, and work with her publicist; a tall, black man. My two new acquaintances were dedicated to helping me discover my niche; what I'm best at. Lea's publicist got me three auditions. I don't remember the first one, though the second was at a swimming pool. I told Lea that because of my disability, I needed someone to help me swim. So, I went to a basketball court for my third audition, and played ball. Then Lea performed in a play at the high school I used to attend.
I remember feeling a lot better about my third audition simply because I was fairly good at basketball. So, I think that the message in this dream is to persevere, due to the fact that I still have untapped potential, and that I don't feel like I've found my niche yet. Furthermore, there are many things that I won't do well at, but there are an equal number of activities I will excel at. It's just a matter of finding them, and then narrowing my focus.
Last night, I had a dream that I was having a conversation with Lady Gaga. I don't remember a lot of my dream, though we were talking about my life and I felt quite at ease. I told her that I loved her & that she inspired me. I also remember telling Gaga that she and Glee helped me through so much, especially with Born This Way.
I'm not a religious person and I struggle with my self esteem, however, I think that I'm being told that I am on the track. I also think that this dream reflects my desire for true friends.
Many, many times, I have wanted to give up on my dreams and aspirations, however, Jomo and others like him that helped me push through my difficulties.
I am grateful that I haven't quit trying to achieve my goals because as long as I'm trying, I am moving forward. Now, this is not to say that I have everything planned out, as the logistics of my ventures are presently unknown which is rather daunting to me at the moment. However, if I just lie here in bed and try to block out my emotions like I'm sometimes tempted to do, then I may never get my novel published, or live the life I want.
Life isn't meant to be stagnant. We are either progressing toward achieving our goals or we're not. This is why Jomo and I are putting ourselves out there and asking for help.
Here's what's up..I can either buy Adobe CS5 and do the art for my graphic novel myself, or go to live at Gage. I can't afford to do both, even though I REALLY want to!
So, I'm going to look for an artist again. I've tried to before but I didn't have much success; I do not totally know where or how to look to get the best results, plus, I haven't had a lot of luck working with people.
I want to collaborate with someone who is passionate, dependable, hard-working and as dedicated to my novel as I am.
So, if anyone has any suggestions, or knows of someone who can help me, PLEASE PLEASE get a hold of me!