Hey, so this is going to be a short post. I woke up not too long ago, and plan to do a lot today. However, I just thought I'd share the following video. 🙂
Hey guys, oh my god, I'm so pumped right now! I just watched the first episode of Jonathan Budd's Unstoppable Reality TV series. If you don't know who this guy is, then click on the hyperlink, and CHECK HIM OUT! He is super inspiring, and just a really cool/neat person! (I couldn't decide between the two adjectives, so I used both! Haha. :P)
This episode inspired me to create what I'm calling MY GOLDEN INTENTION! My intention is as follows; I choose to meet other creative and conscious individuals within the arts community, who are passionate about helping people out, and who want to be part of a team. I see myself with a life similar to Jonathan's in the near future. I mean that I want to have a life, where I'm successful and financially free, whilst doing what I love. I also want a life where I can collaborate with others, and give back to the world.
I was without my regular internet access for about a week and a half, ten days to be exact, and as you might imagine, this was quite hard for me! I had to find other ways to occupy my time, so I wrote and drew, I meditated, and watched movies and TV. I found stuff to do, but even so, I was still very dissatisfied. Now, you may be saying to yourself, "hold up Andre, it sounds like you kept busy, so it mustn't have been that bad." "I don't mean to seem ungrateful," I would respond, "but the internet gives me some amount of independence, and allows me to connect with a variety of people." I felt very cut off from the world, HOWEVER, on to the main point of this post.
One of the movies that I watched during my stint of little internet, was the latest addition to the Spy Kids saga. Initially, I had no intention of watching it, but when my mum put more books on my Ipad, All the Time in the World was added too. I was bored one night, so I decided to watch it, and honestly, I'm glad I did! It's not half-bad, and it reminded me to stop, breathe, and return to a more innocent way of being.
However, I am already somewhat naive, and that makes me feel vulnerable. Now, I know that being vulnerable is good sometimes, but it scares me. I have been fooled and hurt so many times. Though, I really need to distance myself from certain situations for a bit, to use my intuition to discern the reality of said situations. I'm thinking of a recent dilemma, involving Starkeeper. Regardless, I MUST REMEMBER TO DO THIS, especially if I want to get out into the world, and live!
After I watched the above video, on Monday, my goals, and desires to do more with my life, have moved to the front of my mind again. It's funny, in a synchronistic kind of way that in this vid, Jordan talks about "stepping outside of yourself," which just reaffirms the need to momentarily distance myself from certain situations.
Two nights ago, I had a dream in which a friend of mine threw me a Halloween party. The party was at my old house, and we were on our to Zehrs when she told me about all the cool stuff she bought for our All Hallow's Eve bash. My friend thought of everything; she even made sure to invite one of my attendants just in case I needed anything! I expressed my ardent gratitude to her, and then I said that I didn't know that she cared about me that much. "Of course I care about you, Andre," she replied.
We got to Zehrs, and saw that everyone was dressed up for Halloween. My friend and I stopped at a table with a syrupy, pumpkin liquid, she then asked if I wanted to get it for my altar. I said that I did, so we picked one up with the intention to buy. Then, as we left, I saw a brown, tweed jacket. It reminded me of the jacket that the current Doctor Who wears. I said as much, and was overheard by a guy dressed as a zombie who called himself Doctor Evil.
Once in the parking lot, my friend and I heard my alien dog who was still in the store. When we went back inside to see what was upsetting canine companion, we found him at the rack where the tweed jacket hung. "Talk to me, boy," I said as I tried to soothe my dog. However, I didn't understand what excited my dog, but then a blond woman, who happened to be Doctor Evil's wife, came over to me. She suggested that I should get the jacket. She stated that she didn't know much about Doctor Who, but she thought that I was deep, smart and a remarkable person like him. I even had an "annoyingly talkative, blonde haired, female companion. The wife believed that the only difference between The Doctor and I was that jacket, which she ended up buying for me, and bringing it out to my van.
This dream is reminding me of my worth. I believe that it is asking me to recognize and and accept my value. Over the next few weeks, I am going to start to explore my worth.
Hey guys, I hope everyone had/having a safe and happy new year's. I have a lot to talk with you about, I would have written a post yesterday, but I had a headache. This turned out to be a good thing because I was rather nauseous, and I had a dream last night that reinforced the realizations that I’ve had this past week.
I dreamt that I was talking with Richard Cypher in my old house on Burnett. I told him that I was his future. Then, I said to myself, “he was my past but he is also my future!” I felt a deep connection and comradery between Richard and I, and we said much more to each other, but of what I cannot recall. However, I think this dream is telling me that I can be noble, undaunted and stay true to my core self like Richard is.
If you ever read the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind, you'll know a bit of what I'm talking about. This series has to be one of my favourites! I identify with Richard a lot; we have similar values and thoughts about life. He has some characteristics that I admire, and want to embody as well.
While I am still on the subject of dreams, I had another Glee dream on the night before last, which hasn't happened in awhile.
My mum and I were outside, waiting in line to meet the Glee cast. Then someone came to place a barcode with my name around my finger, and was allowed into the building where Glee was being shot. However, before I met the cast, I had to put my barcode adorned finger in a scanner, which looked like a thumb print scanner inside of a small waffle iron. Though, it didn’t get a good reading because I started to spasm, so then, my mum took me in search for another scanner. I told her that we’d get caught, but she wouldn’t listen. The truth of my words came soon after I said them, when a Spanish employee who spoke little English, came and separated us. I tried to tell the employee that the woman I was with, was my mother, and that I was adopted, but she did not understand me. However, she didn’t know what to do with me, and she couldn’t find anyone who would look after me. As a result of this, the employee took me to a room behind a Styrofoam curtain, and this is where the Glee cast was! I talked with Cory, and I felt so much presence and acceptance from him, and the other cast members, but especially from Cory!
My dream speaks to me of independence, and not solely relying on the people that I am comfortable with to help me, even though they mean well. This brings me to the next thing that I’d like to talk about. Last week, on Christmas Eve, I received a message on LinkedIn. The message was from a publisher who is interested in my novel. I was so elated at my sudden good fortune that I had to show my family, but they were not as ecstatic as I was. They told me that I should wait for another publisher because they were worried about her validity. More was said, but to make a long story short; my parents’ advice really shook me to the core, and believe it or not, I started questioning myself. I was very depressed, and I did not know what to do. I repeatedly asked myself how my intuition could be that off. You see, I truly felt that this publisher was genuine, but my parents have a lot more experience in dealing with people than me, so I was going to listen to them. However, after watching Leija’s video, talking about the shadow self, I decided to trust my intuition.
I love YouTube! I love the fact that I can still find people who I resonate and connect with, without having to worry about how I am going to get out of my house.
I was watching Veronica’s New Year’s video, and I answered the questions that she asked in it.
Alright folks, I have finally finished saying all that I want to for the moment. I'm off to bed, but I invite you to answer the questions above, and/or leave me a comment in the space below.
Take care all!