Okay, it's time to write this down! Last Monday, I began to have stomach problems, which wasn't really a new experience for me, but when I did not stop puking, I called my parents.
We went back to C-bridge, and I ended up going to the hospital. I felt a bit better on Thursday, the pain moved down to my balls, though I wasn't too worried about it. I thought that it would pass. HOWEVER, it didn't.
I am going to say this next part, rather bluntly, so fair warning!
My right testicle twisted itself, choking off its blood flow. This led to my testicle swelling up and dying, and so, on Saturday, I had to have an emergency surgery to remove the deceased one, and stabilize the other.
The pain is pretty intense, but I'll get through this, somehow! I will work through this, because as much as I joke about losing a ball, it is an odd experience to come to terms with, ya know?! Plus, it has opened the door to a whole slew of questions!!
I don't know if I should even make this particular post, public!
So, my last post "Believe in yourself, even when no one else does!" hurt people's feelings, which wasn't my intention at all! I blog to express myself, and my feelings were hurt, and I needed to get out what I was feeling.
I'm not perfect, and I don't have everything all figured out yet, but I will. Though, I thought that I pretty well for myself, and then I made people mad at me. It has been hell ever since.
There are people in my life, who don't approve or support my decision to go to university. I don't need their approval, but it still hurts nonetheless. I can do this, I know I can! There are tons of resources that I can draw from that will help me become a successful post secondary student.
My goal to attend university isn't impossible to meet. I know people with similar limitations to myself, and they have their master degrees. Though, they're not me, but my wish to go to university just feels right, you know? I believe that I can reach my goal for higher education, so I'll find a way to make it happen!
Always follow your heart guys, it's a cliche, I know, but hey, it doesn't mean it isn't true.
Hey guys, so I started my 90 day transformational challenge back in February, and my life has changed in some pretty major ways! I now have my own place, I'm much more independent, and I'm going get a new power chair soon! Plus, I am gradually becoming able to sit for longer periods again, which will get even easier when I start taking my botox injections!
ALSO, there's something else happening now, that I think is pretty huge and momentous, and to be honest, I've been kind of wary about telling too many people, just yet. Aha, it sounds like I'm about to come out!! Haha, oh man! SO I'm in the process of applying to UNIVERSITY to become a DRAMA STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moving out on my own has been a very cool experience thus far! I now know that I can actually live independently, and still do well for myself. Mooregate has helped increase my confidence and self-esteem. I feel freer here, and I feel more equipped to achieve my goals, dreams and aspirations!
Grand things are afoot my friends, and it's all terribly exciting!!!
Things just feel right, now, you know? I feel like I'm heading in the right direction, and Veronica's video reaffirms that sense of rightness and flow.