For the past week, I've sent off emails about Starkeeper, which is a lot of work for me (I'm an incredibly slow typist), and honestly, it's a little boring. However, I'm not complaining because writing these emails is just a part of being my agent, and reaching as many people as I can. Anyway, I recently received a response from the OFCP (Ontario Federation for Cerebral Palsy) offering me the chance to sell my novel at their annual conference in November. Sounds great, right? I thought so, though I don't have a way there. The conference is in Toronto, so taking a taxi would be super expensive!
If anyone has any ideas, or knows of a cheaper way for me to go to Toronto, please let me know.
Hey guys, watch these three videos, and then tell me what's impossible! 🙂
This is UBER EXCITING!!!! I just had to post this! I received my first response from the emails that I sent yesterday!
Congrats on your book! Thanks for letting us know. So exciting to have an alumni and author. I have posted info about you and your book in our upcoming newsletter for staff. I have also ccd our resource centre coordinator who will look into having copies of the book in our centres for clients to borrow. I will also share your availability for speaking with our leadership team.
Keep in touch,"
P.S. This is yesterday's post, and I meant to publish it long before now. However, things are happening, though it is 2:30 AM, so I'll tell you about what's going on, later, but it is pretty freaking sweet! Night all!
I watched three YouTube videos today, which I'd like to share with y'all. I noticed many synchronicities when I was viewing them.
I'm not going to state every synchronicity here, I will at some point, just not now. However, I will say the following; these videos got me thinking about money, and why I feel the way I do about it.
I feel okay about the money that comes from my novel, but when I think about the donations and the trust fund that my friend wants to start for me, I feel a little weird. I feel weird and then thoughts about my self-worth arise. However, I know that if I want to travel and do something similar to what Jordan talks about in the third video I shared, I have to figure out why I question my worthiness when money is involved.
I am becoming my own literary agent - I'm really trying to get the word out about me and Starkeeper. I have sent novel related emails all day. I emailed ILC and KidsAbility, though I still want to get in touch with the Ontario Federation for Cerebral Palsy, Holland Bloorview Kids Rehabilitation Hospital, and other organizations that deal with young people with disabilities.
One of the main reasons why I wrote Starkeeper is help to empower others, and I really want them to know that they're not alone. It can get better because good changes are possible, no matter who they are!
Today was awesome - people came, we talked, we laughed and had fun. It was great, and my visitors reminded me that my life, not to mention my happiness, are in my hands, so it's up to me to make changes if I'm not satisfied with them. Now, this doesn't mean that I am terribly ungrateful or unhappy with how things are turning out, just that I want certain aspects of my life to improve, and it is up to me to see that happens.
I forgot to write a post yesterday, but I had a pretty good day. I chatted with a friend of mine, which was cool. Today, however, I didn't really do much - I wrote a few book reviews on Amazon, and practised driving my electric chair.
I found that driving around my apartment and apartment building was kind of nerve-racking, probably because I haven't driven in a while. Plus, my confidence was/is a little low when it comes to a power chair. Even though I didn't crash into anything today, and I used to drive one all the time, I think that my old anxieties are starting to resurface.
P.S. I stumbled upon this video today, and I thought that it was rather funny and synchronistic because my friend and I were conversing about some of the things in this video.
I'm feeling off and rather bleh at the moment, i.e. uninspired and a little stuck and hopeless...though, hopeless isn't the right word...I think that it is just that I'm unsure of how to become unstuck. However, after watching the below video, I realized that I am, in fact, not stuck, and never was. As odd as it may seem, I feel as if I'm a chick that is about to break free from his egg, or a butterfly that is about to emerge from its cocoon.
I had intended to publish this post yesterday, but I had a lot of self work to do.
This is going to be a quick post, guys because I'm busy working my butt off with promoting Starkeeper and myself. To be more specific, I'm presently putting together a submission package for an amazing and awesome, publicity opportunity. This would be HUGE if I get this opportunity, and it would mean that I'd be able to reach and potentially help a lot more people!
So, this is part two of my previous post, and it isn't what I thought it would be. I thought that the next time I blogged would be to tell y'all the response to the email that I sent this morning, regarding Starkeeper and the local news. However, I'm still anxiously awaiting a reply. I am really antsy and nervous. Doubts and fears about never finding publicity, have been swirling around in my mind all day, and my initial reaction was to flee from these uncomfortable feelings. Though, my attempts at running away from what I was feeling, didn't help anything. It wasn't until I turned on Firework by Katy Perry, and actually felt my emotions that I began to let go and release them. I cried during this experience, I felt that shitty. Now, however, I feel great, - I feel almost lighter in a way.
I realized that in order to move forward and start somethin new, we've gotta go through the uncomfortable things to get to the other side. It's how we grow. I've always known this, but it just never clicked in until now, or rather, I'm now seeing it from another perspective.
Lastly, even if I don't get the publicity opportunity, I know that there will be other opportunities because I'm never going to give up.