I’m extremely anxious right now, guys. I ran out of my pain med last week, so on top of being anxious, I am uber sore, and just to complicate things, this particular medication is not covered by ODSP or my dad’s insurance. I am also anxious about moving – I really want to get settled and whatnot, as quickly as I can. I just want to get it over and done with, ya know?
I am supposed to move into my apartment this week, though, it’s not going to happen this soon, because my little brother is in the hospital, and needs to have surgery. My parents are staying with him, so I’ll have to wait to move. I know that I will be in my apartment, eventually, so I breathe, and try to calm down, but it doesn’t help. It’s really frustrating, because I know how to meditate and stuff, however, I can’t seem to break away from my anxiety!
Aside from my med, and the move, I’m stressing over finding someone to help me get out of my apartment, every-so-often. I want to be able to do stuff, meet people, hang out, have a life, and be productive in some way, you know? I don’t want to be a shut-in all of my life!
Prior to writing this post, which I started at 11:30 last night, I watched the following YouTube video. The vid reminded me that it’s okay to be anxious, and that it’s alright to not feel okay sometimes.