I don’t exactly know how to articulate what I want to say, so I’m just going to continue to type, and see what comes up. I recently finished watching Veronica’s video about her feeling vulnerable and raw, and being present with her sensitivity.
This video struck a chord in me because she talks about something that I need to work on. Many people see me as a happy-go-lucky person, and I am a pretty person, but there are deeper, sadder parts of me that they don’t see. I hide these aspects of myself for the fear of people judging me. However, since I am trying to step into a more empowered way of thinking and living, I’m not going to hide anymore.
So, now, I’m going to be honest and real. I still feel very unfulfilled in life. I am getting tired of just sitting around all day, doing practically nothing. I want to be out there in the world, travelling, helping and connecting with people. Plus, even though I have some really good friends, I’m still rather lonely, and I very much long to meet people that I can connect with on a deeper and more genuine level. I wish to have more platonic relationships as well as a romantic one. Also, in regards to my graphic novel, I truly feel that I am just spinning my wheels. However, I don’t know what else to do except to try to be patient and nurture my faith that someday soon my goals will come to fruition.