I just finished watching a video by Teal, about resonance and happiness. I've watched it twice, and I'm listening to it again as I write this post. I wish to really absorb and integrate what she's saying, because I feel that this is exactly what I need to hear right now.
I have been very anxious about my life lately, and I haven't had anything new that I wanted to express or share with you, until now. This is why I haven't blogged for a few days.
I recently met someone online who had an interest in me. We talked, and he grew on me; I came to really like, and care about him. However, he is wanting commitment, and even though I really want to eventually be in a committed relationship, I've realized two things. A) I'm not quite ready for a romance yet. B) I am genuinely attracted to a lot of people, and due to my intense empathy and compassion for them, it's easy for me to see myself in a relationship with each of them. However, I do want and value monogamy and commitment, so I must not only be true to myself, but stay true to the things I wish in a romantic partnership.
I felt bad that I hurt the guy's feelings by telling him my realizations, though, I was honest with him, and didn't want to lead him on. This guy isn't talking with me anymore, which is okay, I guess, because I've learned what I needed to, from knowing him.
People come into our lives for a reason, I truly believe this, and Teal reaffirmed my belief, when she said something similar.
P.S. I started writing this blog post yesterday, however, I was too tired to finish it until today.