Hey all, so I’ve been really struggling with what I had to offer lately. Struggling with what I can bring to a long term relationship. I’m a über romantic at heart, you know? I would love to sweep my man off his feet, wrap my arms around him, surprise him just to see him smile, comfort him when he’s not feeling up to par, and be there for him in all the ways that an awesome boyfriend is! However, due to my physical disability, my reality is somewhat different, and honestly, it’s kinda sucks! I have a lot of fears about not being able to be awesome boyfriend material gained from years of rejection and alienation because of my CP. Plus, people keep telling me about how dating someone can be quite dangerous. He might take advantage of me or he might only be with me solely out of pity. These warnings are an ever-present stampede of wild horses in my mind, which just fuels my anxiety. Though, after reading Shane Burcaw’s article about his girlfriend, I realized that I have a whole hell of a lot to offer!
Sure, I will never be a traditional boyfriend, but there is value in unconventionality! Much like my comic art, it isn’t traditional, it’s different. Different is not bad and/or unattractive, it’s just that, different! Even though I knew this intellectually, I never really felt like it was true for me until now! Shane’s article has helped me to realize that I have a lot to give my gorgeous boyfriend. I can comfort him when he’s down, and make him laugh. I can be a supportive friend, and a great and devious partner-in-crime, it may not be like the movies but hey, this is real and it’s my life.