I am experiencing a lot of different emotions now, guys. I'm feeling kinda raw, vulnerable and ANXIOUS, but at the same time, I feel like things are going to work out. I can and will make my goals and aspirations, a reality. There is evidence of this; my novel is in my publisher's hands, and I'm going to Mooregate tomorrow, to see the apartment that I might be getting. Plus, I'm slowly becoming more independent, and more of a self advocate.

However, even though I know that I am making progress, and moving towards my dream life, there is still a part of me that doubts. There's still a part of me that says, "Andre, what the hell are you doing? Don't get your hopes up, man, 'cause what you are trying to do is impossible. How can you possibly succeed when you're in immense pain 24/7?" I do realize that this is just my ego talking, and reprising its role in the war within myself.