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Day 33

Hey, so, yesterday (Thursday, the 14th) I found out that I was ranked #1 for the apartment at Mooregate. Exciting, no?! I thought so, but a couple of people aren't as enthused as I. They're all scared, and worried that I won't  make it on my own. Moving out, and living independently is a totally new experience for me, and because of this, there is a lot of stuff that I will have to learn. I'm no longer in a space of fear, so, people's anxieties surrounding me having a place of my own, don't affect me like they used to. Furthermore, I've come to really understand that if I start acting like the person that I want to become, I will be moving ever closer to said person. I know that sounds obvious and simple, however, it's not as easy to implement.

After watching Teal's video on spirit guides, I got thinking about archetypes, which led to thoughts of Richard, a protagonist in Terry Goodkind's Sword of Truth series. I see Richard as a model of the type of person that I'm striving to become. He doesn't have all the answers to a lot of what he wants to achieve, however, he knows his worth, and also knows that he's capable of figuring things out. Similarly, I don't know how to do a lot of what I want to do. I've never moved out before, but as Zedd, another character in the Sword of Truth series, would say; "think of the solution, not the problem."  I intend to follow Zedd's advice, and just focus on the here and now.

In the sixth book - The Faith of the Fallen, instead of focusing on his captivity in the Old World, Richard carves Life, a statue depicting the beauty and nobility of life.

I started this post last Friday, but then I went to the hospital because of a really intense pain in my side.

Days 34-41

This past week has been pretty crazy! My parents and I have been busily preparing for my move. We went to Ikea, and a few other stores, it's all a little overwhelming, but exciting! I was anxious earlier in the week, since I'm not too sure of how I'll be able to afford everything. However, I'm going to find out my rent on Monday, and my mum told me today that I have enough money for the first few months, which is a relief! In other news, I went to Baycrest yesterday, to their seating clinic, and things just felt right, there, ya know?! I still really want to move to Toronto, but I'm getting ahead of myself. Anyways, the people at Baycrest said that I'll have my new electric chair in June! XD