Hey guys I hope you are well! Sorry I haven't written in forever; life has been pretty freaking crazy for me, which is usually why I go MIA, and drop off the face of the Earth! Life is especially crazy at the moment. I'm facing some wicked stakes (not to be confused with the awesome tale of two witches), and just a few life-altering decisions... no biggie! I'll save said decisions for later posts ...but no, I'm not exaggerating or hyperbolizing, I'm just not good with sharp, pointy objects.
Two of the decisions will have a profound impact on my health and physical ability. However, the odds may or may not be ever in my favour, thus before I say yay or nay to anything, I've decided to go on a quest for some peace of mind. To start my quest, I'm going to reach out to a couple of my fellow indie artists I met at the Toronto Comic Con, and see if they'd be interested in helping me with or taking on the art for my comics. Now, please don't get me wrong, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ILLUSTRATING MY OWN STUFF, so this isn't me giving up on doing what I love by any means. This is me trying to make sure that if,and I put emphasis on the "if" anything happens, and it turns out the odds are not in my favour, I'll still have a way of being creative, as well as a way of continuing to get awesomeness out to you! I want to do this stuff for a living, you know? I'm really working on making this a reality, and I've been getting amazing opportunities to help me achieve this! I really don't want to drop the ball, so I'm going to start building a team, which was what I have wanted to do for awhile now!
In other news, Jason and I just had our first year anniversary earlier this week! We went to a hotel and a Hedley concert, which was AMAZING, and my very first concert ever!!! A lot has happened this year; lots of tough times and new experiences for the both of us. Jason is the first boyfriend I've ever had, so all this is still kinda new and scary for me, however, I think I've learned a lot, and started to step into my own. I'm not that scared little teen anymore, in some ways I am, but in many ways I'm not.
Anyways, stay tuned for the upcoming posts about my stakes and big decisions. Plus keep an eye out for one about the extremely awkward and uncomfortable yet kinda funny experience I had at work last month!
Hey all, so I've been really struggling with what I had to offer lately. Struggling with what I can bring to a long term relationship. I'm a über romantic at heart, you know? I would love to sweep my man off his feet, wrap my arms around him, surprise him just to see him smile, comfort him when he's not feeling up to par, and be there for him in all the ways that an awesome boyfriend is! However, due to my physical disability, my reality is somewhat different, and honestly, it's kinda sucks! I have a lot of fears about not being able to be awesome boyfriend material gained from years of rejection and alienation because of my CP. Plus, people keep telling me about how dating someone can be quite dangerous. He might take advantage of me or he might only be with me solely out of pity. These warnings are an ever-present stampede of wild horses in my mind, which just fuels my anxiety. Though, after reading Shane Burcaw's article about his girlfriend, I realized that I have a whole hell of a lot to offer!
Sure, I will never be a traditional boyfriend, but there is value in unconventionality! Much like my comic art, it isn't traditional, it's different. Different is not bad and/or unattractive, it's just that, different! Even though I knew this intellectually, I never really felt like it was true for me until now! Shane's article has helped me to realize that I have a lot to give my gorgeous boyfriend. I can comfort him when he's down, and make him laugh. I can be a supportive friend, and a great and devious partner-in-crime, it may not be like the movies but hey, this is real and it's my life.