Hey all, so I've been really struggling with what I had to offer lately. Struggling with what I can bring to a long term relationship. I'm a über romantic at heart, you know? I would love to sweep my man off his feet, wrap my arms around him, surprise him just to see him smile, comfort him when he's not feeling up to par, and be there for him in all the ways that an awesome boyfriend is! However, due to my physical disability, my reality is somewhat different, and honestly, it's kinda sucks! I have a lot of fears about not being able to be awesome boyfriend material gained from years of rejection and alienation because of my CP. Plus, people keep telling me about how dating someone can be quite dangerous. He might take advantage of me or he might only be with me solely out of pity. These warnings are an ever-present stampede of wild horses in my mind, which just fuels my anxiety. Though, after reading Shane Burcaw's article about his girlfriend, I realized that I have a whole hell of a lot to offer!
Sure, I will never be a traditional boyfriend, but there is value in unconventionality! Much like my comic art, it isn't traditional, it's different. Different is not bad and/or unattractive, it's just that, different! Even though I knew this intellectually, I never really felt like it was true for me until now! Shane's article has helped me to realize that I have a lot to give my gorgeous boyfriend. I can comfort him when he's down, and make him laugh. I can be a supportive friend, and a great and devious partner-in-crime, it may not be like the movies but hey, this is real and it's my life.
For six years now I've been enjoying Glee, and oftentimes writing about it, and how it has inspired me. This light-hearted, musically themed show constantly reminded me to always be myself, especially when I'm flying solo because I feel super different. My green skin is just too much for a lot of people to handle, but I digress! Glee has also reminded me to keep on going on the days when I really want to give up, and hibernate for a thousand years.
Build your own molds - a great reminder!
Who am I? I am just a 24 year old guy who is trying to build a happy and meaningful life. I have Cerebral Palsy, and require assistance to complete all my tasks and activities of daily life. These tasks include eating, grooming, toileting, cooking, etc. I also need help out in the community to go on shopping, work-related, and leisurely excursions.
What am I trying to do? Well, to answer this, I shall start by sharing the following two videos.
I totally agree with Dayna! The media and entertainment industry plays a big role in our society, and maybe it’s time to use it to our advantage, no? This is part of why I wanted a protagonist who happens to have a disability. However, I would still like to get back into modeling and acting, as soon as I find the right people and assistance to help me.
Like the individuals in these videos, I am also trying to create change. A year ago, Starkeeper: Longing, my first graphic novel was published. Starkeeper is a science fiction story that follows Cal, a bullied, disabled teen whose life changes in ways that he never imagined, which led him to discover his powerful birthright. Since its publication, my novel has opened the door to a few opportunities where I got to share Cal’s journey as well as my own with other people with disabilities. Getting the chance to connect with people who have had similar experiences as me was awesome, and being able to let them know that they aren’t alone was even better! I would love to have many more opportunities like this, and incorporate them into a future career, alas I can’t achieve this without the necessary assistance, which I currently do not have.
Therefore, I am trying to find volunteers, a way to hire my own attendants, or some other avenue to get the help I need, so I can continue to build the happy life and career that I so desire.
I know I am a dreamer, but I don't think that my goals and aspirations are impossible, I just have to find a way to achieve them.
P.S. I have looked into the Direct Funding route, as you guys know, and I don’t think seven hours (which is the maximum allotment) would be enough for me, because there have been times when I was out all day.
Hey, so I haven't blogged in awhile. Why? I have been rather busy and anxious, which is nothing new, but anywho..During one of my many strolls through the interwebs, I read that if a book and its author don't do well in their debut year, chances are, they aren't going to. I'm kinda freaking out about this notion, as the end of my debut year soon approaches.
After watching Teal's video, I've decided to concentrate on my small goals that I can achieve in a day or two, like finishing a panel of my book, writing a query letter, and working on my speech for next week. However, my publisher doesn't think that a literary agent would help since I have her, and even if what I read about an author's debut year, is true, it is really disheartening, but I'm not giving up.
See ya guys later!
This needs no introduction. 🙂
I found this TED Talk on UpWorthy on Friday.
I'm still so incredibly moved and blown away by all the support you guys keep showing me! Thank you guys. Y'all are awesome!
Know what is almost as awesome?! I was offered not one, but two speaking opportunities today, which I would definitely like to attend!
Found this on YouTube, yesterday, and I'm going to try to do some of what Gala suggests. 🙂
Hey guys, thanks so much for all the support! I'm extremely grateful, in awe, and honestly, a bit shocked by how everyone responded to the article.